WAKING UP TO THIS WORLD FOR THE FIRST TIME, HELL, WHO KNOWS WHEN IT ALL BEGAN. YOU ENLISTED
OR YOU WAS DRAFTED OR PERHAPS A CONTRACT AND BOOM, YOU ARE IN, ACTIVATED WITH YOUR
AGENCY OR GOVERNMENT OPERATION.  AT SOME POINT  DURING COMING HOME, THE TRUTH HITS YOU
THAT YOU HAVE TO ACT OR PRETEND TO LEAD A NORMAL LIFE. SHIT, AFTER ALL THAT IS SAID AND DONE
YOU SOON REALIZE THAT THE VET HOSPITAL AND ALL AFFILIATES LEAVE YOU HANGING BY THE LEDGE OF
COPING WITH SOCIETY WHICH HAS NO APPRECIATION OR PLACE FOR THE WOUNDED WANDERING
WAYWARD SOLDIER.  IN MY CASE, SHIT MAN, I NEVER UNPLUGGED BUT I WANTED LOVE, HELL, AFTER ALL I
DID FOR MY COUNTRY, THERE WAS AN EMPTY SPOT A LONGING AND YEARNING TO LEAD WHAT COULD BE
CONSIDERED A NORMAL DECENT LIFE.  

THE FIRST THING SOLDIER, YOU HAVE TO REALIZE THAT ALL SIDES ARE FUCKED UP, NO TRUE RIGHT OR
WRONG.  IF YOU ARE WAY DEEP AND ABOVE TOP SECRET LIKE MYSELF, THEN YOU REALIZE THAT THERE IS
NO DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE GOOD THE BAD OR EVIL, ITS ALL BULLSHIT.   I AM THE GUY WHO KNOWS
EVERYTHING, I MEAN EVERYTHING. I HAD TO MAKE A CHOICE TO IGNORE THE BULL, LIVE IN A LIE, RESIST,
OR KEEP AT THE SAME BULLSHIT.   

THE SYSTEM IS CORRUPT ALL AROUND, IT MAKES NO DIFFERENCE IF YOU LIVED ON MARS OR VENUS FOR
THAT MATTER, WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IT; CONTROL. THAT'S WHAT THEY WANT. TO CONTROL YOU OR
GET YOU TO CONTROL OTHERS, A SITUATION A TASK OR ELEMENT, BUT IN THE END, YOUR WOUNDS WILL
SOUND THE REVERBERATION  OF THE FACTS OF LIFE: WE ALL DIE AND WHEN IT IS ALL SAID AND DONE,
DOES PURPOSE MATTER, DO I MATTER OR AM I JUST ANOTHER HOLE IN THE SYSTEM LONG LOST AND
FORGOTTEN.

EACH DAY IS FUCKING HARD, GETTING A JOB, STAYING IN A MEANINGFUL RELATIONSHIP AND TRYING TO
COPE WITH PEOPLES BULLSHIT WHO FALL WAY TOO SHORT IN APPRECIATION OF THE FUCKED UP
FREEDOM YOU AND I FAULT FOR. HELL, IT'S ALL STILL SLAVERY ANYWAY, BUT WHO ARE WE TO JUDGE, WE
ARE JUST PROFESSIONALS DOING OUR JOB.

ENOUGH OF THIS BULLSHIT, LET'S GET DOWN TO THE NITTY GRITTY

YOU HAVE TO ASK YOURSELF SOLDIER/AGENT IF YOU GIVE A FUCK, IF THE ANSWER IS YES, THEN KEEP ON
READING, AND IF NO, WHO GIVES A FUCK ANYWAY, ITS JUST BUSINESS.

I TRAINED THE BEST AND HIGHEST RANKED ENTITIES IN THE UNIVERSE BUT AT SOME POINT, I NEEDED TO
COME DOWN OFF THE HIGH OF MARTIAL LAW BLAH BLAH BLAH.  

OH HELL, THEY STILL WANTED ME AND IN THE END THEY STILL HAVE ME, BUT THE RELATIONSHIP IS FAR
DIFFERENT NOW, THEY NEED ME TO KEEP HOLD OF SHIT GETTING WAY OUT OF HAND, AND TRUST ME, THE
LEFT HAND AND THE RIGHT HAND ARE HACKING AT EACH OTHER, BUT THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY...
LAUGHING OUT LOUD HERE.   

YOU NEVER COME DOWN COMPLETELY FROM COMBAT MODE, HELL, IT'S ALL YOU KNOW AND IT WILL
TAKE AROUND TWENTY YEARS TO FULLY RECOVER. THERE IS NO EASY WAY TO IT, JUST FIND OUT WHAT
YOU VALUE MOST AND STICK BY IT.

MY JOB HERE IS TO HELP YOU GET TO THAT THING OR NICHE, GOT IT?  
3 2 1 SNAP  AT REST SOLDIER.
REMEMBER EVERYTHING AND  FORGET WHAT YOU NEED IN ORDER TO COPE WITH EVERYDAY LIVING


                       COMING HOME? DEALING WITH THE PSYCHOLOGICAL

FIRST THE SOUNDS:  A  PERSONS YELL, A BABY SCREAMING, A CAT FIGHTING OR MATING OUTSIDE YOUR
SLEEPING QUARTERS OR MAYBE YOU ARE JUST OUT AND THIS SHIT HITS YOU. THOSE WAR SOUNDS WILL
BE MIXED WITH THE SOUNDS AT HOME AND IT WILL PLAY ON YOUR PSYCHE.   REFRAIN FROM SNAPPING IS
KEY BECAUSE YOU ARE ALWAYS GOING TO BE ON EDGE, AT LEAST UNTIL YOU LEARN NOT TO REACT TO
THE PROGRAM YOU ARE SO FUCKING USED TO.  THIS ONE STILL GET ME EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE AND I AM
NOT SURE IF A INDIVIDUAL EVER FULLY RECOVER.  I AM PRETTY GREAT AT DISTINGUISHING AND
DECIPHERING ACTUAL HOSTILE ENVIRONMENT  AND HAVE PROGRAMMED MYSELF NOT TO ACT OR REACT,
BUT THIS ONLY COMES WITH PATIENCE WITH YOURSELF.  JUST REALIZE THAT IT DOESN'T MATTER
ANYMORE AND YOU ARE NOT GETTING PAID TO BE A VIGILANTE (A FIGURE OF SPEECH OF COURSE).

ON EDGE: THERE WILL BE KEY THINGS YOU WILL HAVE TO NOTE AND I MEAN PEN AND PAPER OR TEXT
YOURSELF, WRITE IT DOWN, TIE A STRING, BRING A YO-YO WITH YOU, SOMETHING TO HELP YOU
REMEMBER THE KEY SOUNDS AND PHRASES WHICH SET YOU OFF. IF YOU BLANK OUT FOCUS ON WHAT
YOU DID BEFORE YOU BLANKED OUT. THIS SHITS HARD AS FUCK BUT IN THE LONG RUN, YOU WILL BE
BETTER AT IT.  

REALIZE THAT ALL YOU KNOW/KNEW IS WAR AND BATTLE AND THE PROBABILITY THAT YOU ARE GOING TO
REACT OR ACT IS HIGH ESPECIALLY IF YOU'VE BEEN DROPPED OFF AND LEFT ON YOUR OWN TO FEND.

BEING TAGGED: GET PASS THIS SHIT, EVERYONE IS TAGGED AT SOME POINT, THERE ARE NO SECRETS
ANYMORE, TRUST ME ON THAT SO DON'T GET FUCKING PARANOID IF YOU ARE BEING WATCHED OR
FOLLOWED.  YOUR ULTIMATE GOAL IS TO PROVE TO YOURSELF AND THEM THAT YOU CAN FUCKING COPE
WITH LIVING IN EVERYDAY SOCIETY.     


AT REST SOLDIER

AT EASE AGENT

TAKE A BREAK CHARLIE

WEEKEND OFF JOHNNY BRAVO ALPHA DELTA EAGLE RANGER
SNIPER SCOUT HUNTER MASTER SEAL SHARK WINGMAN PANTHER
SALAMANDER DOLPHIN SHADOW-MAN NINJA KNIGHT CARETAKER
WALKER RAKER BOMBER DRAGON SNAKE-EYES SCARECROW
FREELANCER CONTRACTOR ALPHA DIGGER STOMPPER CRAWLER
LEATHERNECK JAR-HEAD TENDERFOOT TANGO

THE LIST IS ENDLESS BUT YOU KNOW WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE
AND IF YOU DON'T... KEEP COMING BACK, IT WILL EVENTUALLY
MANIFEST AND COME TO YOU.

                              THINGS YOU WILL NEED:

YO-YO:  THIS IS AN ANTI AGGRAVATION METHOD UTILIZED TO NEUTRALIZE YOU DURING ANGER SPIKES.
ALSO AIDS IN SELF HYPNOTISM IN REMEMBERING YOUR LAST PROTOCOL AND AIDS IN TOTAL RECALL OF
PAST LIFE.  WHEN YOU ARE DISTRACTED OR ANY OCCASION WITH ANGER, CONFUSION OR MEMORY, THEN
PULL THAT YO-YO OUT AND JUST FLING THE SHIT OUT OF IT, CONCENTRATE ON THE SPIN AND KEEPING IT
DOWN-SPIN-MODE AS LONG AS POSSIBLE AND THEN PULL IT UP.  THE HARDER AND LONGER THE SPIN, THE
BETTER. THIS WILL AID IN KEEPING YOU NON-ACTIVATED OR TRIGGERED.

DOOR/WINDOW SENSOR: THOSE CHEAP DOOR ALARMS FOR BURGLARS WHO BREAK IN WINDOWS OR
DOORS. THEY ARE FOUND AT HOME DEPOT, LOWE'S, WALMART, AND ANY HARDWARE STORE INCLUDING
CHEAP BIG LOTS. THEY ARE USUALLY WHITE AND ONE END IS A MAGNET AND THE OTHER A SMALL PLASTIC
SIREN ALARM THAT ARE ALIGNED AND MOUNTED ON LEDGES OF DOOR OR WINDOWS, AND WHEN THE
MAGNET OR ALARM IS JARRED IT RESOUNDS AN ALERT.  

MAGNETS: STRONG MAGNETS CAN BE BOUGHT BUT ARE ALSO FOUND INSIDE SPEAKERS SUCH AS HOME
THEATER OR HIGH PERFORMANCE 12 INCH SPEAKERS OR SIMILAR . AS SEEN ON TV SHOPS AND MAGIC
SHOPS SALE REALLY STRONG OVAL OR ROUND MAGNETS.  THIS IS UTILIZED TO KEEP CERTAIN RF'S DOWN
DURING SLEEP PATTERNS, NAMELY THOSE OF YOU WHO HOUSE CHIP-SETS IN YOUR BODY PARTICULARLY
YOUR  SKULL, LEFT OR RIGHT TOP SIDE.  YOU NEED TO MAKE A HAT OR SOME WAY TO GET THE MAGNETS
AROUND YOUR COMPLETE SKULL BOTH LEFT/RIGHT  TOP AND SIDES.  THE GOAL HERE IS TO KNOCK OUT
THE CPU PROTOCOL UNIT.  NOTE: IT IS POSSIBLE THAT THE BRAIN CAN USE NANOBOTS TO REPAIR THE
CHIP ONCE IT IS DAMAGED, THUS STARTING OVER, HOWEVER THE GOOD NEWS IS THAT YOU MAY GIVE
YOURSELF FREEDOM, EVEN WHEN THE CHIP-IS REACTIVATED. (NO PUN INTENDED HERE). I AM NOT GOING
INTO DETAIL HERE BUT IF YOU ARE LUCKY YOU WILL FIND A BOOTLEG SURGEON WITH X RAY AND
CAT-SCAN WHO WILL TAKE A FEW BUCKS TO GIVE YOU PHOTOS AND EVEN REMOVE YOUR CHIP(S).  THIS IS
VERY HARD AS IT WILL BE A SCIENCE FICTION SHOCKER TO THE DOCTOR WHO MAY KEEP THE CHIP OR
EVEN TURN YOU IN.

                                                         
THINGS TO DO


UNHOOK DOOR BELL, MAKE EVERYONE KNOCK. DON'T FALL ASLEEP AT YOUR COMPUTER, UNPLUG LAND
LINE IN YOUR BEDROOM, 75LB DUMBBELL WEIGHT OR HEAVIER TO BLOCK FRONT AND BACK DOORS
DURING SLEEP. COUNT THREE TWO ONE, SNAP YOUR FINGERS AND SAY "WAKE UP, REMEMBER".  REMIND
YOURSELF EACH DAY THAT YOU ARE MOST LIKELY UNDER HYPNOSIS AND NEED TO WAKE UP AND
REMEMBER EVERYTHING.  DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF ANYONE IS WATCHING YOU. THIS WILL KEEP YOU FROM
GOING CRAZY.  ASK YOURSELF IF YOU GIVE A FUCK ABOUT LIVING A REGULAR LIFE OR NOT; REHEARSE
AND ENVISION GIVING THE SECRET LIFE UP, AND TELL YOURSELF ALL THAT SHIT YOU WANT TO BELIEVE,
BUT IN THE END, YOU HAVE TO DEVELOP OR PRACTICE A CONSCIENCE.    


MORE LATER BUT IN THE MEAN TIME, RELAX AND LISTEN TO JAZZ AND HAVE LOTS OF SEX, EVEN IF YOU
HAVE TO PAY FOR IT, STAY PUBLIC IN MALLS WITH PEOPLE  CONCERTS AND PARTIES. LIVE IT UP AND DON'T
ISOLATE YOURSELF FOR MORE THAN EIGHT HOURS.


SIGNS OF HYPNOSIS AND HOW TO COME OUT OF THE NIGHTMARE